Wednesday, October 8, 2008

The scream

I can feel it inside me but it won't come out. The pressure has built
all afternoon. I haven't felt this way in months... Not since he
left. I lived for 8 years under his ever-increasing control, fearful
of his anger and disapproval and constantly trying to please. Right
before he left, I tied my stomach in knots - literally! Had to have
major surgery for it.

Now my stomach feels like it did back then. Like a burning, churning
ball of stress. I tried calling BECG2 for comfort. Ha! Wrapped up
in his own work shit, he said "go figure.". Yep, I can pick 'em.

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